The air was chilly, my hands shook as I clutched my coffee cup. I walked up the steep stairs and opened the glass doors. It was as if I had stepped into a different world.
There was life here.
My eyes didn’t know where to focus. They flitted around the room from the group of guys playing Mario Cart to the small group of creatives engaging in a heated political discussion.
My heart began to beat out of my chest. My brain was in overdrive, and I began questioning my decision. “Do I really belong here,” I wondered.
Then a familiar face greeted me.
The butterflies in my belly began to calm down, and I was able to gather my thoughts and form an intelligent conversation.
It was my first day at my new job.
That was Monday and ever since my life has been a whirlwind of endings and beginnings. Meeting new friends and saying, not goodbye, but “see you later” to the old.
I had been at my former job for six years. That’s six years of memories, tears, sweat and relationships packed into a box.
It was all so ironic. I wasn’t even looking for a job. I was happy, blissfully content and then a chance meeting and boom! I had a job interview and was offered my new position within 24 hours.
At first I was annoyed about giving one month’s notice at my other job, but in the end I was grateful for the time.
The transition has been an adjustment to say the least. Instead of working with people twice my age I’m working with people younger than me. Like so much younger, if I would have been a teen mom I could have given birth to them.
But here’s the thing. I don’t feel old, I don’t feel out of place. We just gel in this crazy magically creative way. We eat and breathe social. It’s our lives, and while I loved my old job, this new adventure is jolting something inside me that has been dormant for so long.
For years I had been searching for my creative mojo, and now I’ve finally found it. So much so that it’s overflowing into my everyday life.
I’m more passionate about blogging, writing and I’ve even found some energy to decorate the house a bit.
All this creativity has sparked my energy level too. I’m not as tired at the end of the day, my brain is constantly buzzing with ideas.
I’ve found myself again, and it’s beautiful. My writing is still choppy and fragmented. Kind of like the thoughts in my head, but I have no doubts that the flow will come again. If not it’s ok, at least I’m creating something.
Speaking of creating and energy and mojo and all the wonderful things that make life awesome, my boys have been providing me with some excellent Sound Bytes.
3. BigE: “What do you think the cat does while we are gone, mom?”
ME: “I’m not sure buddy. What do you think he does.”
BigE: “I’m pretty sure he has cat parties and invites his friends.”
I’m pretty sure the cat does have parties while we are gone. Look at him. Doesn’t he look like he’s been partying.
2. LittleRed: “What’s this new soap mama?”
ME: “It’s Very Berry.”
LittleRed: “No I think it’s farts, because it’s stinky like farts.”
I live in boy world so everything just comes back to farts.
1. LittleRed: “I’m the boss of you BigE.”
BigE: “No one is the boss of anyone except God.”
ME: “How do you know about God?”
BigE: “My friend G talks about God, and he has a book that talks all about him.”
ME: “You mean the Bible?”
BigE: “Yeah, the Bible. We need one of those.”
If you can’t tell we aren’t much of a church going family. I’m a spiritual person, but we don’t talk about GOD much or anything, so this came as a total surprise. Also, it’s nice to know he’s picking up some good things too from his friends.
Well, I’m off for a big meeting about This is My Brave. Oh, yeah, because my life isn’t busy enough with the new job I thought I’d just produce a show in May. If you feel inclined we’d love your support.
Then I’m off to my new job, where I’ll Tweet the day away. If you are on Twitter pop over and say “hi” I’ll be there.
Have a great weekend and BE CREATIVE today!