I forgot.
I forgot until I read her words.
As the memories came flooding back, my breath stopped and the tears flowed.
I forgot.
How does someone forget?
With everything going on and life whirling around me, I forgot.
How could I forget?
I just called the lawyer and I see his truck everyday as it sits quietly outside our house.
What’s the statute of limitations on remembering?
When can I just let go and not feel guilty about forgetting.
Remembering hurts. It’s like a scab being pulled off and the blood that flows is reminiscent of the tears that stained my cheeks that day.
Each time E tells me to look at the electrical poles and that Grandpa used to work on them or when he accidentally calls Papa Grandpa. And when G’s birthday is celebrated I will remember that day.
I don’t want to remember that day. I WANT to forget it.
When I forget that day, I forget that he is gone.
Sail on Dad.
>a gently thoughtful post…
just to let you know, i can host virtual coffee if you'd like to join in…
i know i miss our catch-ups over coffee 🙂
>Oh, lovely. Be gentle with yourself. Grief is tricky and part of it can be forgetting days or anniversaries because they do, indeed, pull open the scab. Big hugs.